Sunday, February 28, 2010

I'm ok. I can do it.

Well hopefully I didn't run off all my readers with last Thursday's post. I kept looking over my shoulder for the men in white coats, but they never found me. I've learned a lot since that post. I learned to make a granny square, which I had been wanting to do for a few weeks now. My trip to Little Rock and back yesterday helped me not think about work for a little while, so I'm not as stressed in that area. My van is still in the shop (I don't think I mentioned that the other day), but we've got a loaner and it's under warranty, so I've convinced myself that there's nothing to stress about there either. At bible study tonight, I learned several important things. This week she talked about going through a dry spell and used a lot of Moses references. For example, remember when Moses saw the burning bush? Moses had spent 40 years in the palace and then 40 years in the desert. You don't see burning bushes in the palace, you see them in the desert. By the way, keep in mind I'm an accountant, not a Bible study leader, so this may not be word for word or in the correct order. Moses was raised in a palace and had the finest education, but was tending sheep when God spoke to him through the burning bush. This was not his dream job. It was a job he probably hated, but he did it to the best of his ability. God used this job to equip him with dedication. God taught Moses how to lead sheep, then sent him to lead people. Moses learned a lot in this job. In relating this to me and my job situation, I'm not saying I hate my job. Right now I'm so overwhelmed that I'm unhappy with my job, but I need to realize that God has me in that job to teach me something I can use later for Him. I may be like Moses and work in this job for 40 years until He thinks I'm ready to do whatever He has planned for me next. I need to do this job to the best of my ability. I don't need to give up. I don't need to look for a way out. Look what happened to Sarah--God told Abraham he would have a child. Sarah tried to HELP God by telling Abraham to have a child with her maidservant. I don't need to help God--HE IS GOD. I just need to stay where He puts me until He moves me somewhere else. He sees my struggles. He knows the desires of my heart. He also has the power to change the desires of my heart to match up with His desires. God knows my heart beats too fast. He knows I'm tired. He knows I'm overwhelmed. He knows that I don't have a tendency to come to Him when I can do it all on my own. When I can't do it all on my own, I have to lean on Him. I've also learned in this Bible study that He is not going to show me the master plan for every detail of my life. He will show me each step though. It's better to have someone riding in the car with you directing you where to go than to have a map. So anyway, I'm gonna be ok. I'm sure most of you knew that already, but I have to remind myself of that sometimes. Thank you for your prayers.

4 comments:

Sue from Oregon said...

I am so glad you have found the peace in life you deserve. Life doesn't have to be so tough...

Christina said...

Big Hugs first step taken realize its ok to be human!

Aunt Pat said...

I am so glad you are feeling better about things. I knew you would be okay but I was still concerned for you. You know the saying-Let go and Let God...it is so true, yet we hardly ever do. I love you kiddo.

Ashley said...

I really needed to read that. You know whats been going on in my life this past week.. I've had to be so careful not to get in the way of what God was doing. Hang in there. You're a great Mom, cousin, and friend! Love you!